I love you

Love,
Me

Okay many times I’ve had this question posed. And I don’t quite know how to answer it, cos what they are asking and what I’m thinking is different. I gotta be better prepared for it in future. Then when others ask “Are you Chinese?” I must remember to say no I’m Singaporean. Cos as much as it saddens me to see the state of my home country right now, part of my heart lies there.

I’m feeling so homesick or rather baosick. Suddenly remembered the time u accompanied me to Aston’s even though you hate the food there :’( And I remember u peeling crabs even though you didn’t eat them often before. I miss you so damn much.

I miss you bao. I can’t wait for you to graduate so that we can study/work overseas together. I don’t think I can take our separation much longer :’(

That someone who caused me so many years of pain shouldn’t deserve happiness. Bah! *shrugs* I don’t really care anyway.

*Cross fingers* Hope my bao and I get the results we want ^^

I find it difficult to recall memories that bring me pain or unhappiness. And along with those memories are the people who made them, gone. I don’t know why it’s like that though? It’s like reflex I guess.

Each time unhappy memories flash through my mind, I feel like jumping out of my body. Like a panic attack:(

Or is it just forgetfulness at work?

I’m deathly afraid of people being fake or dishonest. Cos when I trust, I trust the person and not each separate statement the person makes. When lies are exposed, the one I blame is myself, for being unable to differentiate truth and lies, for being too trusting.

I’m so glad that you’ve never given me reason to doubt you. I love you so much. Thank you for saving me from these.

Suddenly remembered the day you tabaoed ur mum’s cooking for me after work and I gobbled my food up in Suntec City. Mei Cai Kou Rou and the yummy egg ^^

I wish you were here now. I will u over. *concentrates*

Our Major Milestones
We have:

1.Not seen each other for 6 years (Ok not exactly seen I spied you once in a busy shopping mall haha)
2.Joined a reality show audition (and not gotten chosen lol)
3.Tried LDR
4.Travelled together
5.Gone to Finland to watch the Auroras (Soon!*Cross fingers*)
6.Had a baby (Not yet but a girl can hope ^^)
7. ……. More to come :)

Finland, Pompeii…

To someone competitive like you, I guess you must be pissed. Cos to you, I “won” and you “lost”. But to me it’s not like that at all. It’s just the relief of being able to hold on to the people I care about.

The only thing I want to win, is trust.

So adorable! ^^